I Am Not Very Close With My Relatives

Right now I'm living in a country where I have no relatives. No parents looking over my shoulder. No siblings to laugh and cry with. No crazy cousins to visit for a weekend and gossip about the world with. And..I kinda like it? Maybe it's a sense of escape after so many years of being so tightly wound up in my family, almost trapped by the sense of expectation and this last couple of years has been like breaking free from that. I'm just relieved that I know I can be independent. That I can be somewhat of an adult. I feel like I'm rambling and waffling but I get the feeling this is what this place is for to a degree.