Missing my father.

My father passed away unexpectedly in November of 2022 it shifted my entire life I soon became extremely depressed and apathetic about life. I didn't eat, sleep or get anything done. I was procrastinating a lot I felt alone and completely lost I would just start crying out of nowhere because greiving was a new harsh reality to me. I'm ok now I haven't cried ever since but there are somedays where the pain comes back to me and the thought of my dad missing in my life hurts me. I know i have to keep living my life but grieving is still a new thing for me. I've tried to not cry to not upset myself but I've realized that it's ok for me to cry and it's a release I was alone the entire time grieving my dad I have no one to talk to about it and somehow It made me stronger knowing that I don't need anyone and that no one was there for me.