I Am Divorced

Today was a really tough day for me. I never had a Xmas without my family
And without my kids in my life. It was awful and I am sure I could have done things to have made it less painful
But it wasn't easy. For the most part I have slept all day. I always am sleeping a lot since my divorce unless kids are
Here. I really feel awful to my gf. I deeply regret pulling her into this situation and haveing to watch me go through the pain points and the sadness .
I feel selfish for bringing her into my life when my
Life
Is still
Messed up