If you've ever felt utterly helpless and scared...

How did you accept it or heal it?

Watching my dad in hospice as of a week tomorrow, it's been PAINSTAKING. He has aggressive cancer that could not be treated with chemotherapy. Being a stroke victim too and MS made him in a high percentage of dying from chemo than the disease itself. He's been sleeping all day , most days, but today at noon he was awake an hour..that was huge.

But tonight he was so weak again, and saying nonsensical things. He was moaning in pain and just seemed so uncomfortable..
Watching this SHIT cancer take over his entire body and mind, I feel HELPLESS. And the one tiny thing that was positive was he was on a steroid that helped inflammation.now hospice took that away because the side effects outweigh the benefits. I just am mad that we can't do anything to truly save someone ..and one day soon he could pass and I dont know how Ill cope🙁

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chuck7882 · 61-69, M

I know its hard. My dad had a massive heart attack and was on a ventilator for three weeks before he passed. Going to see him in the hospital every day was the hardest three weeks of my life. When he passed I consoled myself with the thought that he was finally at peace.

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@chuck7882 I'm sorry about your dad😢 Was he able to hear but just not talk ? Yes the main thing I'm finding on "How will I cope when he does pass? " Is that he has been really suffering for weeks now. Constant pain in his legs and back, infection on his butt, and back too, and now so weak from the cancer being aggressive. I don't want anyone to die ever, but this is horrible to see daily. He would be not in a body anymore, but his spirit will be in peace. Thank you 🌸

chuck7882 · 61-69, M

@Baybreeze yes he could hear but not talk. Ad his body language was such that we knew he was in terrible distress. It was horrific to witness