If you've ever felt utterly helpless and scared...

How did you accept it or heal it?

Watching my dad in hospice as of a week tomorrow, it's been PAINSTAKING. He has aggressive cancer that could not be treated with chemotherapy. Being a stroke victim too and MS made him in a high percentage of dying from chemo than the disease itself. He's been sleeping all day , most days, but today at noon he was awake an hour..that was huge.

But tonight he was so weak again, and saying nonsensical things. He was moaning in pain and just seemed so uncomfortable..
Watching this SHIT cancer take over his entire body and mind, I feel HELPLESS. And the one tiny thing that was positive was he was on a steroid that helped inflammation.now hospice took that away because the side effects outweigh the benefits. I just am mad that we can't do anything to truly save someone ..and one day soon he could pass and I dont know how Ill cope🙁

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Harmonium1923 · 56-60, M

When my mother was in that state, I asked myself how I wanted to spend my final days with her, and what she might like from me. (She was unable to talk at that point, but appeared to be able to understand at least some things). I decided to read her stories from some of our favorite books, ones that we pretty much knew by heart. Now those moments, even coming at such a difficult time, are some of my sweetest memories.

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@Harmonium1923 I'm sure she felt a calmness when you read the stories. That was very gracious. Thank you for sharing .

I've been playing his favorite songs and yesterday morning we watched a bit of tv. By nighttime he could only watch a few minutes 😟. Every few hours is different. Sometimes he can talk and open his eyes, then is slurring like last night and saying random thing as if he had dementia. I just hope I can have a couple more days where he talks normally like yesterday morning.