I just lost my Mom
On Friday 9/19/25 My mom lost her battle with Cancer she was so strong for so long but, the Cancer won. I won't ever forget that day. I was getting my daughter ready for home school. and my dad calls with a simple "She's gone." I just simply went about my day as on auto pilot.
But deep down inside my mind was still swirling with the aspect I won't see my mom again. won't hear her laugh or nag me to play the lottery. I won't be able to bg her about my day. Im a grown man but that simple "shes gone" regressed my mind to that of a boy wanting his mother.
She was the pillar of strength in our family the one you could go to for anything at anytime. she was as nice as they come. People keep telling me it will get better with time but I'll never be truly okay again. the worst of it all is now I have to sit my daughter down. and explain to her why she won't see her Grandmother again. it was a talk I knew I should have had with her. I just feel an emptiness now like a void in the pit of my stomach. I think a part of me died with her. we grieve in our own way. I've been mainly trying to keep busy with my hobbies to take my mind off it. as I don't have many friends.
because when all is silent is when it starts setting in.
But deep down inside my mind was still swirling with the aspect I won't see my mom again. won't hear her laugh or nag me to play the lottery. I won't be able to bg her about my day. Im a grown man but that simple "shes gone" regressed my mind to that of a boy wanting his mother.
She was the pillar of strength in our family the one you could go to for anything at anytime. she was as nice as they come. People keep telling me it will get better with time but I'll never be truly okay again. the worst of it all is now I have to sit my daughter down. and explain to her why she won't see her Grandmother again. it was a talk I knew I should have had with her. I just feel an emptiness now like a void in the pit of my stomach. I think a part of me died with her. we grieve in our own way. I've been mainly trying to keep busy with my hobbies to take my mind off it. as I don't have many friends.
because when all is silent is when it starts setting in.
26-30, M
