Today is Christmas Eve. My sister, my mom, and I are currently celebrating. After a while, my mom asked for a family photo, and I noticed that she and my sister were wearing some kind of matching couple shirts. I jokingly said, "Where's mine?" Then she said she didn’t buy one and started explaining why she didn’t get me one.

Of course, that hurt me. You could say she had her reasons, but this has already happened before, at least over five times. Whenever we celebrate something or go out, they wear matching outfits, and I always look like an outsider. It sucks because she could have just told me she planned to wear matching outfits. Even if she didn’t want to spend money on me, she could have told me, and I could buy one for myself.

But now that I think about it, that kind of hurts more because it feels like I’m forcing myself into the family. Haiyst.