Basically my mum was an alcholic and very violent years ago and she used to hit me but as soon as i was old enough i started hitting back and now years later i feel very guilty 😔
As others said do make it up to her. I suspect she may also have a lot of guilt for how she acted when you were younger so you may need to take the first step in forgiving her for her actions and asking forgiveness for how you behaved. There is no guarantee she will do the same but it is a start. I wish you the very best in this and hope in some way the relationship can be restored.