Why is my life like this?

Firstly, it's understandable that you're feeling insecure and frustrated right now. It's okay to feel this way, and it doesn't mean that you're not capable of achieving your goals.

It's important to remember that everyone has their own journey and timeline. Just because your batchmates are achieving things in school doesn't mean that you're not capable of achieving great things in your own time and in your own way.

It's also important to recognize that you have a lot of responsibilities at home, taking care of your younger siblings, which is a huge accomplishment in itself. Being a good caregiver is a valuable skill and shows that you are capable of taking on important responsibilities.

Although your current situation may seem difficult, try to remember that it's not permanent. You can work towards your goals and find ways to become more independent in the future. Don't give up on your dreams, and don't let your current circumstances hold you back. You are capable of achieving great things, and you deserve to be proud of yourself.❤️

One of the worst aspects of Facebook is that posts by batchmates can cause envy and insecurity.

Remember scholarships?

Try to forget about the achievements of others and focus on your own work.
Competing with yourself, and knowing you're doing your best, is all that matters.
The education system is designed so that the more time and effort you put in
the better you do in the exams.

If you feel you need help with your school work, ask your parents for a tutor (say for 2-3 hours once a week).
Or speak to the relevant subject teacher.

~ To do your best, you need 8-9 hours sleep per night -
... so at night leave your phone and laptop where you can't reach them.
... Allow yourself at least twenty minutes of relaxing in the quiet dark;
... that's how long it normally takes to fall asleep.

~ Give yourself an hour a day of exercise in the form of walking the dog, swimming or dancing.
... This helps keep your mind at its best and assures good sleep.

~ Don't neglect to give yourself a bit of time for relaxation and fun each day and on the weekends.

If you do well enough in your exams, you'll be able to win a scholarship. Try researching these to find out what's available for which uni's and where they are. Don't worry about the Ivy League; middle-ranking unis do an excellent job. If you know your preferred profession, hunt for the unis with good reputations in that field.

If you're maths oriented, business or accounting school might suit you.
If you're well organised, perhaps secretarial training.

If you're definitely not academic, consider a trade. Often these earn far better money than the professions do.
And don't limit yourself to just the typically female-dominated jobs. Many women can do traditionally male trades if they wish. For instance, a mechanic is almost never out of work.

If the school has a psychologist or a vocational counsellor, make an appointment to have a catch with them. They should be able to help you quite a lot.

None of your choices need lock you in to a particular path. People can use what they have, add to those with new skills and change direction. Or completely retrain for two or three careers over a lifetime.

U could get a job and pay for it yourself

Capitalism