Why is my life like this?

Ever since I was a little kid I really wanted to have a degree in college or to finish it and become professional. I'm always enthusiastic back then but as I grow older I realized that being a college student isn't cheap. I'm asian and asian parents doesn't easily let their child to move out and be independent (which I always wanted) I lived with my Dad and his family (I'm a daughter of divorced parents) I voluntarily told them that I'm just gonna dropout of school because I can hear them talking about how much money it would cost me to send for school. I asked them that i wanted to be independent but they don't want it because nobody will take care of their child. And now as I was scrolling through my facebook I can see the posts of my batchmates having achievements in the school. It made me insecure. It made me look down on myself. I don't have any achievements. I can't be prout of myself because there's nothing to be proud of. I cant even take selfies because I think i don't deserve to smile. I want to achieve something. Why are they holding onto me? Why am i the one parenting my younger siblings instead of them? WHY CAN'T I JUST GET OUT IN THIS HOUSE?

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Sakuraaa · 18-21, F Best Comment

Firstly, it's understandable that you're feeling insecure and frustrated right now. It's okay to feel this way, and it doesn't mean that you're not capable of achieving your goals.

It's important to remember that everyone has their own journey and timeline. Just because your batchmates are achieving things in school doesn't mean that you're not capable of achieving great things in your own time and in your own way.

It's also important to recognize that you have a lot of responsibilities at home, taking care of your younger siblings, which is a huge accomplishment in itself. Being a good caregiver is a valuable skill and shows that you are capable of taking on important responsibilities.

Although your current situation may seem difficult, try to remember that it's not permanent. You can work towards your goals and find ways to become more independent in the future. Don't give up on your dreams, and don't let your current circumstances hold you back. You are capable of achieving great things, and you deserve to be proud of yourself.❤️