Disgusting self reflection and hard truths|

How do I still get surprised when words cut so deep? I should have seen it coming.

How can someone who says they love you say such deep cutting things? Same arguement, different day.

Why do I let the same people repeatedly hurt me? Take advantage of my grace and forbearance.

Why can't my boundaries be stronger? My codependency is suffocating me.

Why do I keep leaning to abusers for support? Expecting different results with no change.

Why do I keep giving chances? I let my forgiveness be taken advantage.

I need to do better for myself. I also need to give myself grace on this. This was not my fault. I am enough and I didn't deserve this.