Not good enough
After so many years of dreaming of looking for this same guy in my dreams, I finally reached him and met his gaze. I saw his eyes, bright and blue, shining almost like gems. He seemed sad, or unsure...idk but I have never been able to imagine this man being happy to see me. I think in my heart that if I met the man of my dreams that he would automatically be too good for me.
Deep down I realise I don’t feel I am good enough.
In the dream, I feel disappointed at myself. I am disappointed because he was right there in front of me, and all I did was stare. I felt awkward and then I vaguely remember saying some gibberish and looking away. At that point of course, the moment is gone.
I have always felt like the dream state is a measure of how your soul is doing, and mine always seems to be unaware. Or…I am very aware of how unaware I am and it bothers me.
😑
Deep down I realise I don’t feel I am good enough.
In the dream, I feel disappointed at myself. I am disappointed because he was right there in front of me, and all I did was stare. I felt awkward and then I vaguely remember saying some gibberish and looking away. At that point of course, the moment is gone.
I have always felt like the dream state is a measure of how your soul is doing, and mine always seems to be unaware. Or…I am very aware of how unaware I am and it bothers me.
😑
