I’ve been having a lot of weird dreams lately. I woke up crying this morning lol but my favorite dream so far was when I dreamt I was addicted to coke
I had bought a decent amount for who knows why? Side note: I told myself i’d never do it again unless it’s offered by someone that I see doing it themselves and still okay afterwards lol but anyway. I don’t even hang around people like this anymore.
In the dream I went completely against what I said and didn’t buy just a little bit, I “accidentally” bought a lot.
I started doing it immediately and the first high was amazing, I wanted to keep it going but every high after each bump got shorter and shorter.
Desperately looking for the high again I ended up leaving in the middle of family functions and going into the bathroom and thinking “I have to hide the fact that I’m doing it so often because then everyone’s going to think I’m addicted or something. I’m not addicted. I have self control”
While in the back of my mind my subconscious was telling me “do you hear yourself right now? You’re already there” but I was just ignoring the truth and telling myself “well I’m just trying to get rid of it so nobody finds it”
“I have it, so why not?”
“I don’t think I’m doing enough because I don’t feel anything anymore, I’m going to do more this time”
It was so weird.
In the dream I went completely against what I said and didn’t buy just a little bit, I “accidentally” bought a lot.
I started doing it immediately and the first high was amazing, I wanted to keep it going but every high after each bump got shorter and shorter.
Desperately looking for the high again I ended up leaving in the middle of family functions and going into the bathroom and thinking “I have to hide the fact that I’m doing it so often because then everyone’s going to think I’m addicted or something. I’m not addicted. I have self control”
While in the back of my mind my subconscious was telling me “do you hear yourself right now? You’re already there” but I was just ignoring the truth and telling myself “well I’m just trying to get rid of it so nobody finds it”
“I have it, so why not?”
“I don’t think I’m doing enough because I don’t feel anything anymore, I’m going to do more this time”
It was so weird.
