So over it
Nothing compares to those rages. The fears, what ifs, how comes..no sudden bursts of enemies or synergies is worse.
I fear the threats..i got no regrets but what will they do to me?
I see the hinge on the door, will they break through and come after me at his demands?
Lost love yet stranded.
Cant sleep...tossing and turning..i am consistently
Tormented by you.
He promises to harm and defile and just end my secret security. STEAL..KILL DESTROYED..He grapples at where to make me fear next.
No manual to escape.
Lowering me down, the grave is cold..but fire me up..desperately trying to make it.
I looked out the window for the 210th time tonight..fear..painful aches, night sweats..its not menopause!
I check each lock, each door..hes coming but how? Its this intensity, this type of heart ache and pain domestically abused gets your mind.
I knew id be done with him..but what about his fellow abusers..the ones whom i cant see, the ones whom i fear behind the screen time?
Every word ever spoken..every thought by myself,...alone... every prayer ever prayed, how much longer until im out of breath?
He chokes me with his silence, yet i for one and i know hes contemplating..hes stratagizing his next move..instill fear, cause her pain..over n over again..then move on to the next one...i sense it...i know it will come to pass..fear darkens my heart, my mind cant escalate to overlook his threats..yet is it only him doing this?
Hes coming..again the intensive of his messages, the fear that grapples deeply inside my broken body...will he make something or someone get to me where he cant? Is he going to gourmet foods my processers? Ah the agony..why did i even speak? Become numb my heart said..shout my body did...racing that was my favorite thing..but he wins, everytime! This sucks...
Why dont i just hault this hurt now, why dont i just survive?
Thats it ..im so over it.
No fear.
Life looks too good on you to stop living.
Listen to me, i been there, i fear no more from him. He cant hurt me no more.
Despite my one request, ill always love him...but ill never trust another soul again.
The LAST thing i need now is another relationship.
Taking time to heal, seeking counseling, and learning my worth.
He broke me, he bruised me, he used me..but im strong enough to say NOT TODAY SATAN!
I fear the threats..i got no regrets but what will they do to me?
I see the hinge on the door, will they break through and come after me at his demands?
Lost love yet stranded.
Cant sleep...tossing and turning..i am consistently
Tormented by you.
He promises to harm and defile and just end my secret security. STEAL..KILL DESTROYED..He grapples at where to make me fear next.
No manual to escape.
Lowering me down, the grave is cold..but fire me up..desperately trying to make it.
I looked out the window for the 210th time tonight..fear..painful aches, night sweats..its not menopause!
I check each lock, each door..hes coming but how? Its this intensity, this type of heart ache and pain domestically abused gets your mind.
I knew id be done with him..but what about his fellow abusers..the ones whom i cant see, the ones whom i fear behind the screen time?
Every word ever spoken..every thought by myself,...alone... every prayer ever prayed, how much longer until im out of breath?
He chokes me with his silence, yet i for one and i know hes contemplating..hes stratagizing his next move..instill fear, cause her pain..over n over again..then move on to the next one...i sense it...i know it will come to pass..fear darkens my heart, my mind cant escalate to overlook his threats..yet is it only him doing this?
Hes coming..again the intensive of his messages, the fear that grapples deeply inside my broken body...will he make something or someone get to me where he cant? Is he going to gourmet foods my processers? Ah the agony..why did i even speak? Become numb my heart said..shout my body did...racing that was my favorite thing..but he wins, everytime! This sucks...
Why dont i just hault this hurt now, why dont i just survive?
Thats it ..im so over it.
No fear.
Life looks too good on you to stop living.
Listen to me, i been there, i fear no more from him. He cant hurt me no more.
Despite my one request, ill always love him...but ill never trust another soul again.
The LAST thing i need now is another relationship.
Taking time to heal, seeking counseling, and learning my worth.
He broke me, he bruised me, he used me..but im strong enough to say NOT TODAY SATAN!
41-45, F
