Long(ish) update
Heyy I'm still alive lol...
So what happened since last I posted
1.) I visited a psychiatrist and she said I have "Asperger's syndrome" which I do not btw. I just wanted to see how easy it is to get access to medication here and let's just say, it's MUCH easier than it should be. I mean, you only have to say yes to a bunch of questions, just look up stereotypical behavior of ur chosen disorder and there u go...
I mean this country is well behind bigger ones regarding mental health care. Obviously you discovered that by now since Asperger's syndrome is STILL given here as official diagnosis wow, I'm shocked.
2.) I'm doing much better. Actually, I'm fine now I think, pretty sure. I still question the point of life sometimes, I still wish I didn't exist here and there, but overall I'm good, I'm not suicidal, I'm not depressed, I don't struggle with anxiety or panic attacks, everything's good. My feelings are a little all over the place, maybe I'm developing some kind of personality disorder too, but I'm working on stopping(?) that while I can. I put aside closer friendships for now, surface level friends do the job while I work on understanding myself better.
3.) I'm going to move away soon, and it's been stressing me out a bit I can't lie. I like my current friend group at this school, I don't wanna abandon it. I'm having doubts, what if I try a new school and then wanna come back here? What if I'll miss it? What if the people there won't be the same? I struggle a little with making and adapting to changes, but I'm sure I'll be able to push through it, right...
Anyway, that's all for now I guess. Glad to be back
So what happened since last I posted
1.) I visited a psychiatrist and she said I have "Asperger's syndrome" which I do not btw. I just wanted to see how easy it is to get access to medication here and let's just say, it's MUCH easier than it should be. I mean, you only have to say yes to a bunch of questions, just look up stereotypical behavior of ur chosen disorder and there u go...
I mean this country is well behind bigger ones regarding mental health care. Obviously you discovered that by now since Asperger's syndrome is STILL given here as official diagnosis wow, I'm shocked.
2.) I'm doing much better. Actually, I'm fine now I think, pretty sure. I still question the point of life sometimes, I still wish I didn't exist here and there, but overall I'm good, I'm not suicidal, I'm not depressed, I don't struggle with anxiety or panic attacks, everything's good. My feelings are a little all over the place, maybe I'm developing some kind of personality disorder too, but I'm working on stopping(?) that while I can. I put aside closer friendships for now, surface level friends do the job while I work on understanding myself better.
3.) I'm going to move away soon, and it's been stressing me out a bit I can't lie. I like my current friend group at this school, I don't wanna abandon it. I'm having doubts, what if I try a new school and then wanna come back here? What if I'll miss it? What if the people there won't be the same? I struggle a little with making and adapting to changes, but I'm sure I'll be able to push through it, right...
Anyway, that's all for now I guess. Glad to be back
13-15, F