My own body hates me

I was up all night because I had another night of constant bloating. No matter how much gas I actually pass it just builds up again and makes it impossible to sleep. I missed my class I was looking forward to so much because Im so tired and weak from it. It’s really ruining my life but the doctors don’t care and Im already broke from trying to pay my bills. I can feel my mental illness getting worse and worse by the day and am terrified of what might happen if I lose control. Im so sick of this and living just because of my rage. I just don’t know how much more I can take.