Nightmare night 🤪
Stupid stress dream after stress dream. First one I was playing a videogame with my husband. I was a shapeshifting class in it like a druid. I was having fun swapping through all the different forms. I didn't realize it like....made my husband feel jealous? He ended up unlocking some secret super monstrous form and being like surprise I shapeshift too! Screw you! And then he kept trying to kill me in the game. So it wasn't really fun to play anymore and ruined the whole thing.
The second one I was supposed to go on a fun shopping trip with my mom. But when we went out....I realized she had been drinking. She was stumbling all over the place, I practically had to physically escort her around. At one point she fell, and she was too heavy for me to hold up on my own so her leg twisted in a weird way and she was laying there in pain until I finally got some random guy to come help us.
After that I took her straight home and said we were done. Then she tried to blame me for what had happened....said I should not have taken her out when she "wasn't feeling well" (she always says she is feeling sick when actually drunk to try to cover it up). I totally blew up at this and screamed that she was the one who chose to drink when we were supposed to go out, she wasn't going to pin that on me. She started being rude again and I told her this was why I never spent time with her anymore she just harassed and bullied me. I didn't like spending time with her anymore she just always makes me feel bad. She then tried to go into her "But I'm the victim" mode and say "What that's not true I love you!!" And I told her it didn't matter how much she said she loved me when she treated me like shit and made me feel like shit the other 9/10 interactions we have. An occasional I love you you're my world thrown in there does NOT negate the abuse.
Basically I told her everything I have been holding back from telling her while awake ☠️ She then pulled her classic move of tattling on me to my dad.....whining I was being mean to her. (She really is a toxic bitch lmao). To my surprise....my dad did not step in to defend her and try to play peacemaker as usual. Instead....he pretty much told her to shut up and that he agreed with me and she was ruining her relationship with her kids. And he said she wouldn't remember any of this conversation anyways so she should just go watch a show or something. HAHAHA that part was so funny him saying she wouldn't remember anyways. (She has an awful memory due to being constantly blackout wasted combined w history of head truama bc falls over all the time when drunk). So I ended up walking off just laughing and shaking my head. Then I told my husband about the whole thing bc he can't stand my mom either and how I was proud of my dad for actually addressing her unhealthy behavior with her and standing up for me.
It ended well but....it was still an upsetting dream. Since I had a nightmare....woke up and fell back asleep to another nightmare....I am scared if I go back to sleep now I will just have another nightmare 😔😔 stuck in the nightmare cycle again. Ugh.
The second one I was supposed to go on a fun shopping trip with my mom. But when we went out....I realized she had been drinking. She was stumbling all over the place, I practically had to physically escort her around. At one point she fell, and she was too heavy for me to hold up on my own so her leg twisted in a weird way and she was laying there in pain until I finally got some random guy to come help us.
After that I took her straight home and said we were done. Then she tried to blame me for what had happened....said I should not have taken her out when she "wasn't feeling well" (she always says she is feeling sick when actually drunk to try to cover it up). I totally blew up at this and screamed that she was the one who chose to drink when we were supposed to go out, she wasn't going to pin that on me. She started being rude again and I told her this was why I never spent time with her anymore she just harassed and bullied me. I didn't like spending time with her anymore she just always makes me feel bad. She then tried to go into her "But I'm the victim" mode and say "What that's not true I love you!!" And I told her it didn't matter how much she said she loved me when she treated me like shit and made me feel like shit the other 9/10 interactions we have. An occasional I love you you're my world thrown in there does NOT negate the abuse.
Basically I told her everything I have been holding back from telling her while awake ☠️ She then pulled her classic move of tattling on me to my dad.....whining I was being mean to her. (She really is a toxic bitch lmao). To my surprise....my dad did not step in to defend her and try to play peacemaker as usual. Instead....he pretty much told her to shut up and that he agreed with me and she was ruining her relationship with her kids. And he said she wouldn't remember any of this conversation anyways so she should just go watch a show or something. HAHAHA that part was so funny him saying she wouldn't remember anyways. (She has an awful memory due to being constantly blackout wasted combined w history of head truama bc falls over all the time when drunk). So I ended up walking off just laughing and shaking my head. Then I told my husband about the whole thing bc he can't stand my mom either and how I was proud of my dad for actually addressing her unhealthy behavior with her and standing up for me.
It ended well but....it was still an upsetting dream. Since I had a nightmare....woke up and fell back asleep to another nightmare....I am scared if I go back to sleep now I will just have another nightmare 😔😔 stuck in the nightmare cycle again. Ugh.
