Scared to sleep tonight [I Have Nightmares]

@Allelse Same waking up and having my boyfriend there to comfort me after a bad nightmare has been awesome. Before I had him I used my pets for comfort.

Currently I don't have a great therapist :/ I was out of therapy for a long time because I was doing well and didn't feel I needed it but recently just due to world events and life events I felt the need to get back in. But the lady I'm seeing now hasn't impressed me so far and I didn't schedule our next appointment because I don't think I want to continue seeing her. It is really hard to find good therapists. Most of them are....overwhelmed by what I bring to the table 😓

@Ananke Hahaha! Yeah me too, a bed covered in cats and dogs so I wouldn't be alonne. Now it's a bed with my wife and the cat! :D well, it used to be the wife, the cat AND the dogs, but they've since passed away. But yeah the more animals I had in my room as a kid the better it was.

I've been lucky that I've had the same therapist for 7 years now, and he's grand me and him get on great. But yeah it sucks when you get find a therapist that just isn't for you, that just doesn't get it. Yep!! Overwhelmed and all "I can fix you, BUT YOU BETTER FOLLOW MY PLAN FOR YOUR RECOVERY TO THE LETTER!!!" when really I just want somebody to listen to me, and tell me no, you're not insane, your family treated you like shit. I don't want a plan for recovery, I only ever wanted somebody to listen to me.

@Allelse See for me I start sharing my problems and 9/10 times they just start looking seriously uncomfortable and at a loss for words. Granted my issues are weird and generally non applicable to the general population (i
I suffer with schizoaffective disorder-I have battled mental illness since I was a young child as well as nightmares) but it is still always hurtful and discouraging to see that in someone who is supposedly a professional. Or I get the people who believe my issues are spiritual and not psychological which just ends up confusing me.

But same as you generally what I really just want is for someone to listen. Not act all freaked out or anything just listen and be like "damn that sucks, but how are we gonna cope with that?" I've basically had to act as my own therapist most of the time and I do a way better job than anyone I've seen.

I've never had a therapist i really felt I clicked with and wanted to stick with. Between that and literally being dumped by some therapists I have gone through many. Sigh.

A lot of my experiences actually inspired me to go into the mental health field myself:) someday I want to be a psychiatric nurse practitioner and give therapy and whatnot and be the therapist I always wanted to see.