First I push everyone away, then I get lonely.

You are frightened of being hurt, I do know the feeling

I know the feeling. I have bipolar disorder, and it takes some serious patience and tolerance to be my friend. I hope you work things out.

That's kind of like me. i would blame myself for pushing people away when they're just being nice. In my case i was afraid they'll get too close, becase the closer i am to someone the more vulnerable i become. I didn't like that thought so i avoided people. it got better for me when i talked to my sister about it. The good friends i've made helped me too. If you're able to open up just to one person, it might get better 🙂. I apologize if anything i said didn't feel right to you, and i hope you'll feel better soon

You are not alone on this... Someday you will find someone who stays anyway even though you push them away.

For me, it's being on a big ship at sea. It takes a long time to stop, and a long time to speed up. If I feel crowded, I keep pushing people away, more than I need to. Eventually, it ends up in loneliness. Then I start speeding up and re-engaging and that also goes further than I mean it to. I think I have it worked out at the moment and just enough people in my life.

There is an understandable question mark over the generality of people, but one must first be at peace with oneself before inviting others into that acceptance tent.

jus tell others your situation before becoming friends or relationship with them, t hat way they give u your space

Fear ... But of what only you know ... Sometimes you have to take a risk hun

It's not your fault, but trust issues perhaps! :(

It's in your nature, maybe your optimism is colliding with reality