I’m officially done trying to make friends

I’ve been trying to make my own friends since having our first in 2021. I guess I didn’t really have friends before that cause I moved to hubbys hometown 800 miles away from my own in 2016 and the “friends” I did have before kids were his friends that I met through him. He has a couple close friends/acquaintances currently but I’m still left with none.

We had a big fight last night and he told me the one friend, who’s a female and has been his friend for 20+ years, that I’ve been wanting to be friends with for the longest time doesn’t hang out with me because all I do is complain (she’s not wrong but I have nobody to talk to EVER) and tbh that stung hard. She hangs out when I’m not around and makes sure to leave before I get home from work, which I guess makes sense now that I know what I know. Like I suck to be around so much people actively avoid being around me so I deleted all the apps I had trying to make friends because it’s pointless. I’m a person who has to meet someone in person to feel a connection and keep up a relationship so trying to find friends online is pointless

looping · 22-25

i can completely understand wanting to vent all your stress to the first person who will listen. and it's good that you can accept that you do complain a lot. in any sort of relationship there needs to be compromises. as much as it may of stung to be told that you're too negative to wanna be around, it's also a really important learning experience. you need to ease into things like that. if you're trying to make a new friend then you need to start light. you need to build a connection so that when you do eventually vent they'll really want to hear you out.