Overwhelmed by loneliness

Been through a lot lately. Spouse was in a horrible accident. I was out of with for several months to take care of him. When I went back to work I found out my friends weren't friends anymore, I'm the outcast now. But I need the job so I just pretend to be happy to have a job.

Spouse is forever changed... He's a shadow of his former self. I have no idea what the future holds, at least with him going back to work. His health and life are on my shoulders. My family's future is on my shoulders. I found out my youngest baby has autism, and Im heartbroken. Top it all off, I'm recovering from surgery. And yeah, it was elective, but I still have to heal. And there's no support. No one to talk to. It's too much. It all hurts too much.