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Being nearly two years sober of weed and alcohol

I can say with full certainty that smoking weed is doing more damage to you than you realize. Not just physically, but emotionally. I won’t tell others what to do with their lives, I know we are all on our own paths and journeys. But if you are looking to heal, you need to find a way to get sober.

I started smoking weed at 16 years old. I went through fluctuating phases in life where for years I would smoke it on and off, very heavily, to just socially. Even at some points detoxing completely and taking breaks between years. I drank mostly socially, but started to drink heavily for about a year up until I quit.

Not smoking or drinking now, I feel actual peace in my body. I don’t have that empty pit of dread in my stomach, of loss of control of my life, of being completely helpless and alone. Weed increases anxiety, it is so addictive. I know people say it’s not addicting, but it is. It’s mentally, physically, and emotionally addictive.

When I was quitting smoking and drinking at the same time, I was sweating and what I could only describe as melting for an entire month straight. It was weeks of suffering in my body. Mood swings. Headaches, like my brain and body were morphing and splitting open, constantly feeling like I couldn’t ever drink enough water.

After getting through all of that, I have actually met myself. I can feel what my intuition is trying to tell me when it speaks. I am learning more and more about myself everyday. I am so grateful to that version of me who stood her ground and got me through it. I don’t want to ever go back to smoking or drinking. I am free, and I trust myself so much.

Looking back on all of it now at 33 years old, I used to think weed helped me through periods of my life, but all it did was actually hold me back. It stopped me from succeeding sooner. It stood between me and myself, and I now stand between it and myself..

Also, breathing with my belly has changed my life. Not holding your stomach in, and letting it move in and out naturally as you breathe, how it’s supposed to, has healed me emotionally and helped me to connect with my inner self on levels I can’t even begin to explain.
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Reject · 31-35, M
I never drank or smoked anything. Considering how many problems I’ve had in life, I can only imagine the devastation taking those substances would’ve caused me. I have a very addictive personality for something like love, let alone something that’s actually physically addictive on top of emotionally.
Reject · 31-35, M
@soulsrespite Yes! I’d say feelings are our natural drug, but I think love isn’t necessarily a good feeling or experience. I mean it can be, but love is more often proven in the bad feelings and experiences. Not the ones where you’re hurting and trying to resolve it. The ones where you’re hurting and that’s okay. When pain isn’t this thing to avoid or fight. It’s something you can lean into because it’s teaching you how to be grateful for the good. You know it’s a necessary part of the process. I think love is only true in circumstances that don’t permit it, because then you know for sure it’s coming from you and nothing else.

So I mean both honestly. The love for life itself and certainly the people who are a part of it. It can be draining, but I believe that even when you have nothing left, love can still be made.
Yes, peace is good. I like that. I too am learning that. Most of my relationships have been volatile and unhealthy. Calm and peaceful used to be boring for me.

I love coloring too! and stickers ^.^ I also have a stuffy and other things for her. @XxBlahxX

Sometimes I feel like I almost understand you, but then I don’t. 🥺 tbh, you used to be rly boring to me because I wasnt healed and always drawn to and drawing in toxic dynamics. We do agree that feelings are our natural drug and why humans do anything at all. To feel something, whether it’s good or bad. @Reject
Reject · 31-35, M
@soulsrespite It’s okay! Very few people understand me. Actually, I can’t think of anyone who does. There was a time when that bothered me and I deeply wanted to be understood by someone else, but now I know that was only because I wasn’t understanding myself. Happy to not be too boring for you anymore though! 🤧😂 Even happier that it’s a sign of growth for you! To feel is to be human. Good and bad, but to not need either is to feel in a much different way. Before you felt for what you can take in life, but to let everything go is to feel only for what you can give in life.
I'm texting with a friend right now, them telling me not to drink.

If there was ever a time for this post to help encourage someone, it's now. Thank you.
@soulsrespite No, they are telling me.
Ahhh, I see. I misread what you said.

They aren’t wrong, but no one can stop you..

M.. There is nothing you can’t achieve, you have already lived for so long before you started to drink. 🫂 @SinlessOnslaught
@soulsrespite Thank you. Hugs
I am glad you found your way
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Thank you, so are you. @chernobylplaygr0unds
RebelRaven · 51-55, F
That’s awesome, proud of you!! 🤗
Selah ·
I agree. Knock it off.
XxBlahxX · F
Congrats. Seriously. I don't have anything against weed per say but ppl who allow it to make them fucking ...weed head zombies is ridiculous.
Thx. I don’t want to judge ppl who do drugs and drink, I just have been there a few years ago myself. But it rly isn’t helping anything at all. @XxBlahxX
Kiesel · 56-60, M

 
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