Have you ever had a near death experience?

Sometimes i wonder if i did die. And god said Heaven will be like whats on Earth and maybe my mind wasnt ready to die so it kept on going. Too many things changed that arent the same. And i remember when it happened. I hung myself in the bathroom. And when i did everything was so peaceful. There was no struggle. I was gone. And the next thing i knew there was a loud knocking at the back door. And i opened my eyes and i was able to swing my legs to the toilet. And i got down and opened the door and he said, I just wanted to let you know we will be redoing the windows. I said thank you. And i checked the clock almost midnight. And he never redid the windows. When i resaw my father he wasnt the same. My bf wasnt totally in Love with me like he used to. And i began carving my face open from truama and i also didnt know if i was real. I just dont know if any of this is real tbh. And it still happens today. I just dont know if im Alive. And sometimes I think about doing it again. Also life feels differently. It doesn't feel the same like it used to. The way I breath. The way life used to feel. Colors faded. And everything seems like something is missing. And all of us here today are essentially died from our old life experiencing the same thing.