It's very difficult accepting this

My dad was diagnosed just two months ago with aggressive Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma. He wasn't even offered treatment Bec he was so compromised. They said it was a very rapid cancer, and they were correct. He passed two weeks after leaving hospital and going into hospice (on Valentine's Day).

It was all so fucking FAST. The nurse said two weeks was a long time I had, to say goodbye, but it truly wasn't. I understand many don't get that chance to say goodbye, so I'm grateful, very much. But just a few weeks to try to comfort him AND somehow face that horrible disease, was not a long time to me.
I do accept he passed, but then it makes me So deeply SAD. That I won't get to hug him again, laugh, or bring him a nice meal in his nursing home.

Tonight I got an email that the Dexter Resurrection dvd is in at the library. We watched Dexter together sometimes, and he predicted it years ago after New Blood, that Dexter would somehow NOT be dead. And he was right. But now that I'm ready to pick it up, I feel so empty, we were to watch it together. 🙁I guess I can order his favorite sandwich and keep his picture near, and we will watch together. But it still truly Hurts😟 I miss you Dad💜