I Get Sick Easily And Hate It
Throughout my depression years, I prayed hard to die at the age of my favourite number 22. I'm now 21 to be honest and am a happy person most of the time cause I've been through the depressions.
But sadly my body is somehow getting worse, my immune system, my liver and my kidneys somehow sucks due to the quantity of medicines I have took, sometimes my heart aches physically too. I get sick so much easier than my family and friends like at least twice a month, and it usually happens on the weekends having fever after my 5days work. The most irritating part is that I have to cancel all my plans and funs when I am sick. It feels like I have not much time to fulfil my dreams although I believe they are achievable. Today I'm sick again I feel like my time is once again wasted:(
In fact I'm not afraid to die yet I don't want to die young with no glory. I don't know if I have any tumours or cancer as I never have had a comprehensive body check... Of course I don't want it and don't want to know if it does because I know I would be depressed and cut all my motivation, so yeah.
Wow this is my longest and most serious post on here so far. All I want to say is don't end your life so easily, our life are all worth so much more than we thought, at least to ourself. We deserve to live longer to experience the goodness of this world. Hmm pretty much all what I want to say, it would be great if someone could pray for me haha thank you for reading and caring this stranger :)
But sadly my body is somehow getting worse, my immune system, my liver and my kidneys somehow sucks due to the quantity of medicines I have took, sometimes my heart aches physically too. I get sick so much easier than my family and friends like at least twice a month, and it usually happens on the weekends having fever after my 5days work. The most irritating part is that I have to cancel all my plans and funs when I am sick. It feels like I have not much time to fulfil my dreams although I believe they are achievable. Today I'm sick again I feel like my time is once again wasted:(
In fact I'm not afraid to die yet I don't want to die young with no glory. I don't know if I have any tumours or cancer as I never have had a comprehensive body check... Of course I don't want it and don't want to know if it does because I know I would be depressed and cut all my motivation, so yeah.
Wow this is my longest and most serious post on here so far. All I want to say is don't end your life so easily, our life are all worth so much more than we thought, at least to ourself. We deserve to live longer to experience the goodness of this world. Hmm pretty much all what I want to say, it would be great if someone could pray for me haha thank you for reading and caring this stranger :)
26-30, F
