I'm mad at Cancer and life

And I'm agnostic but I almost feel near atheist. My dad got aggressive cancer just a month ago. He's in hospice as it's so rapid, chemo would not have helped. Tonight was torture. He's so miserable, moaning even on morphine AND fentanyl. He could barely speak now, and barely lift his hand. It was so awful also hearing his constant wheezing for days from pneumonia that never cleared. I'm mad at Cancer Bec it's a shit ass evil thing, truly. I'm mad at life too Bec why is there THIS much horrible suffering????? What is the reason????? It was one of the worst days of my life, seeing him decline even more tonight. Dad, I love you so much and I'm still there with you. 🌺💜😞

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mysteryespresso

If morphine isn't helping is it iv or morphine tablet

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@mysteryespresso It's liquid in syringe that goes in mouth. But I asked if they could increase the dose yesterday and they did so hopefully it will begin to work now

mysteryespresso

@Baybreeze if it goes in mouth it’s not iv. You can request treating doctor if they can allow iv or not. Usually it’s not recommended and your patient specifically might worsen so they make tradeoff. If you want him to not experience pain maybe they can do something just ask the treating doctor not nurses or other healthcare staff.