I don’t particularly enjoy being told that I am a fighter.

You’re not a loser E, and you'll never will be. Fighting doesn’t mean you’re supposed to win forever, it just means you cared enough to keep going, even when it hurt, even when it wasn’t fair. You’ve already shown more courage and strength than most people ever will.

It’s okay to be tired. It’s okay to stop fighting someday. None of that erases everything you’ve done or the love you’ve given. You’ve already made your mark just by being here, by showing up for your family, by sharing pieces of yourself even when it’s hard. That’s not losing, that’s living, and it’s beautiful in its own heartbreaking way. 🫂❤

It's kind of a no choice title isn't it? I mean, you do what you do until you can't do it anymore. It's like being called brave for enduring when people don't realise how scared you actually are. The fact that you endure is again because you have no real choice. I mean, it's brave to choose not to endure as well if you ask me. For those who have chosen to end their lives it's no small thing either. Nothing about death is easy. There is no coward's way out when you're not guilty of anything or trying to avoid accountability. It's all scary and brave is the only thing that you can be.

Still could never think of you as a loser though I understand what you’re saying in a technical sense. Don’t know if there are any words/terms that could possibly, accurately, describe what you’re experiencing inside, in an emotional sense. Are there any? Or is this something no one could possibly understand unless they’re going through something similar? I find myself wondering what it is that people most need/want/think at a time like this. If there’s anything that could truly bring comfort.

Lol….. if all this is too heavy feel free to ignore. I’m just feeling pensive. 🫂

There is no winning or losing. You're in a survival mode and instinctually fighting. The human body and mind is amazing like that. It isn't a cost of your worth, how much you dip and rise in these moments because that's human and that's real. You're persistent because you have to be and sometimes that's worth noting without making you feel like it's all in your hands

Dammit I pressed the wrong react option. I know that looks bad, my apologies.
You're definitely not a loser though no matter what happens. Fighting definitely does get tiring after a while & nobody can withstand it forever. & It feels annoying when you had no choice but to fight.. there was no other option. I guess I understand that. It must feel odd sometimes when people call you a fighter for doing the only thing you had to do anyway

"you are so brave and quiet that i forget you are suffering"

Everybody who has ever been born or who ever will be born "loses" at some point. It's what we do in between that counts.

Take a breather.

That's the biggest fear

A fighter is someone who gives everything until theres nothing left.. there is no win /lose