I'm confident i have a brain tumor and I don't know what to do. (update)
Small background stuff, I'm 17 years old ive never been in too bad of health however starting last year i started to have some problems. at first i had a huge acid reflux episode that caused me to go into the er there they did a ultrasound and saw i had a tumor on my liver. It's completely benign and no cause for concern however that alone caused my decent into hypochondria, one day i felt a little sore spot on my head and decided to look up symptoms for brain tumors for some reason and seeing that sometimes it can have little to no symptoms set me off. for the next month i was convinced i had a brain tumor and unfortunately around this time i started to get headaches only on the right side of my head they were mild at best and sometimes i couldn't feel them at all but still they were constant except for right when i woke up and when i went to sleep and nothing helped. i started going to the er almost every day but they wouldn't do anything due to it only being a headache i broke down so meny times cause of that, finally i stopped going everyday but unfortunately then it got worse my right eye got really bad and of course this made me more convinced i had a brain tumor. however when i went to the eye doctor they did see my vision got worse but nothing else and just prescribed me new glasses after seeing my doctor twice for the headaches she prescribed me magnesium to see if it would help any and it did or at least i thought it did. i started taking it every day and the headaches stopped for a whole year only persisting if i forgot to take my magnesium or when i got covid, and after it was all over i thought it was stupid i ever thought i had a brain tumor that was until this year.
unfortunately a few days ago tge headaches came back, im still taking magnesium but they're still here, my vision in the right eye got worse again too. even worse 3 days into the constant headache my right eye has started drooping not too noticeable but still very there and im terrified. i know brain tumors and even brain cancer isn't a death sentence but right now it really feels like it, but even worse im terrified of how my family will react. my wonderful father has been my guiding light through this he constantly reassured me that everything was going to be alright and he was so confident i didn't have a tumor, i remember him telling me he dosen't know what he'd do if i was gone and it just scares me even more now. im terrified of the face he'll make when he finds out even now hes still saying I'll be okay and as much as i want to believe him i just can't. i dont want to see my mom and dad cry because of this, im so scared.
I'm incredibly confident what i have is a brain tumor. and im going into the er today cause of my eye drooping even more and im so frustrated, terrified, sad, im feeling so much i can hardly take it.
dose anyone know what i can do? to cope with this all and help my parents when they find out?
if you read all of that, thank you so much <3.
i dont know if anyone will see this but small update!
i possibly had a "seizure" all i know if i collapsed and was severely confused afterwards my mom freaked but out no jerking or foaming at the mouth or any of the dramatics but i went to the er and got a cat scan, they saw nothing abnormal in that or my blood work other then the fact my white blood cells are a bit high?
of course the little hypochondriac in me immediately looked up if cat scans were reliable and what ive seen is they kinda are kinda aren't, its not the best option but it would work if it was big most likely. (not a professional only what ive seen online dont trust me lol)
thats been my only anchor to be honest, i still believe i may have one but im at least glad it probably isn't so big it would show up in a ct!
i did however notice when i had just got back from the er i felt normal? no real headache except for when i turned my head to fast and walked around alot thinking about it, still felt tired but i haven't been getting alot of sleep lately cause of you know what. but it made me think for a minute it really might just be all in my head, however i also think it might have just been the adrenaline rush from waiting to get the ct results back you can imagine how terrified i was lol
i got an appointment for neurology but for now im riding a bit high and trying to stay positive thanks for the comments they actually helped alot to bring me back down to earth <3
unfortunately a few days ago tge headaches came back, im still taking magnesium but they're still here, my vision in the right eye got worse again too. even worse 3 days into the constant headache my right eye has started drooping not too noticeable but still very there and im terrified. i know brain tumors and even brain cancer isn't a death sentence but right now it really feels like it, but even worse im terrified of how my family will react. my wonderful father has been my guiding light through this he constantly reassured me that everything was going to be alright and he was so confident i didn't have a tumor, i remember him telling me he dosen't know what he'd do if i was gone and it just scares me even more now. im terrified of the face he'll make when he finds out even now hes still saying I'll be okay and as much as i want to believe him i just can't. i dont want to see my mom and dad cry because of this, im so scared.
I'm incredibly confident what i have is a brain tumor. and im going into the er today cause of my eye drooping even more and im so frustrated, terrified, sad, im feeling so much i can hardly take it.
dose anyone know what i can do? to cope with this all and help my parents when they find out?
if you read all of that, thank you so much <3.
i dont know if anyone will see this but small update!
i possibly had a "seizure" all i know if i collapsed and was severely confused afterwards my mom freaked but out no jerking or foaming at the mouth or any of the dramatics but i went to the er and got a cat scan, they saw nothing abnormal in that or my blood work other then the fact my white blood cells are a bit high?
of course the little hypochondriac in me immediately looked up if cat scans were reliable and what ive seen is they kinda are kinda aren't, its not the best option but it would work if it was big most likely. (not a professional only what ive seen online dont trust me lol)
thats been my only anchor to be honest, i still believe i may have one but im at least glad it probably isn't so big it would show up in a ct!
i did however notice when i had just got back from the er i felt normal? no real headache except for when i turned my head to fast and walked around alot thinking about it, still felt tired but i haven't been getting alot of sleep lately cause of you know what. but it made me think for a minute it really might just be all in my head, however i also think it might have just been the adrenaline rush from waiting to get the ct results back you can imagine how terrified i was lol
i got an appointment for neurology but for now im riding a bit high and trying to stay positive thanks for the comments they actually helped alot to bring me back down to earth <3
18-21, F
