Im in pain from GERD

Please don't give up. The mind is an amazing thing. I had bypass surgery and was recovering when I passed a blood clot. This led to a stroke. I turned violent and had to be straped into my bed. During this time I was ripping drain tubes, IV's and PIC lines out. The only time I was calm was when my wife was near me. I was in a a deep drug induced coma but somehow could sense her. I have no memory of this for over a month. The only memory I have is vivid memory of laying tied in bed thinking if I go to sleep now I can pass and all of this pain and violence will be over. I was going to do just that and was at peace with it. My next thought was that I could not do this because I couldn't do that to my wife, kids, and grandchildren. I made up my mind to fight for them. I was transferred to a rehabilitation hospital a week later. Doctors told my wife that they didn't understand what had happened as they had given up and prepared her for my death.
That was almost 12 years and several strokes ago and I still fight for life. The mind is a powerful thing! Fight for yourself and the seemingly impossible can happen.