Something I find hard in recovery is discovering anorexia has been made into an fetish online

Thats one im completely against along with stuff to do with animals or minors. Anything else I dont care about as long as it isnt life threating or hurting anyone or isnt constenting , that deeply makes even recovery harder for me knowing some people get off sexual on me being mentally and physically ill and people actually loose their lifes due to people like that. I have to stay thin and in good health physically and mentally for the job I do , im judged mainly on my body and apparence , but theres so much online about it , its just gross. And some of it is on common places like instagram or youtube and if your following recovery accounts like I do , its not hard for the others to come up too. Ive only been in recovery since november last year , Ive had it for about 11 years , mines been really different all the way through those 11 years such as what I ate in an day and my behaviours constantly changed , and this is my second time in recovery , Ive been different weights and sizes throughout and I do look really underweight at the moment so it looks obvious im still ill So I wont ever post photos of myself online because of the fetish around the ilness. By the way , Im currently not restricting my food on puropse or actively trying to loose weight and im eating every time I get hungery so Im trying my best to fully recover.