So I've been dealing with eating disorders for years now. I've been inpatient twice for eating disorders. I have permanently ruined my back. Can you imagine waking up one day and walking like a grandmother. At your age? I woke up one day with so much pain that i cried my eyeballs out just to get out of bed. I would cry every time i got up from a chair. I was in physical therapy for months. I hated myself for killing and torturing my body. That not the worst part now I have tinnitus. I have loud ringing in my ear. Just imagine having a constant sound that never goes away! Never, i will always have ringing in my ear. I hate myself for this. Ive been depressed for years but this has taken a huge turn on me. I cant believe i no longer have my healthy body. I will never be myself again. I cry every time I think of this! Im crying now. One day I will tell everyone i know who deals with ED's about my experience and tell them its not worth it.
