I Have An Eating Disorder

Yesterday, was immensely draining, I struck this despicable, look upon you, held a gaze, with only mustering in sadness, we spoke of contentment, ambition, we chatted over brunch, these tinfoil, hardly crumble, meshing these bitter remains, onto scrap, I collapsed once more, to appeal to an illusion, light headedness, clouded thoughts, self hatred, this morning ritual, sickening, these daily weigh ins robbing what's little left of me, this insanity, this urge, this non-existent plauge, this immense pain, artificial wounds, can't heal, my hearts intact, blood circulating, my only hope this isn't real, tommrow I'll awake, reflection check, bone protrusion, hip alignment, concaved bones, sweet aroma, distaste, love myself.