if i'm honest with myself yeah. i was dating this guy who quit his job on a whim which spiraled into me paying his rent and other bills. he urged me to buy a switch for my birthday so he could play it, wanted doom for his own birthday a month within mine... he hit me once and was just altogether not super nice to me to say the least. i was sooo miserable in that relationship but felt like i couldn't leave bc i worried that without me paying his rent his struggling family including a 4yo would be out of a home.
i ended up starting to text this guy just to vent about the situation and while we never talked about anything sexual or whatever, like, had my bf at the time known he would have been upset surely. i was fantasizing about having a better relationship, and even though thats not what me and this guy were talking about, it was still wrong of me. we only talked about our days and our lives and food and what have you but still
anyway, eventually my bf starts working again and taking care of himself and i'm like oh thank god finally. then he dumps me and said he quit his job bc he knew i'd pay his bills 💀 which in hindsight duh
so was it a bad thing for me to do, yes, i shouldn't have. shouldn't have stayed in a relationship i was miserable in, shouldn't have been texting that other guy. i would never do anything like that ever again and my past self was real dumb. but that ex also kind of sucked so it's not like i'm losing sleep over it six years later either lol
