I Am An Immigrant

[c=#008099]Today I let myself weep with nostalgia. It's been something less than a year since I've been away from home. I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I have not spoken my language in days so all I can do is murmur when I'm alone and sing folk songs that I didn't even think I liked until recently. People here don't have the same sense of humour and communicating on a deeper level with someone is the hardest task. I feel like I'm the fool of the village. I feel like they see me as retarted. I have this bottle filled with sand from the beach near home, I sprinkle some in my hands and cry.[/c]

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MarmeeMarch · M

There is an easy fix for that.....

writhe · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch [c=#008099]how?[/c]

MarmeeMarch · M

@writhe 🚢🛩️🛶🚀

writhe · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch [c=#008099]it's not easy, I came here for a reason or many reasons, and with a cost. [/c]

MarmeeMarch · M

@writhe I'm just telling you the fix - putting it into action of course can be a challenge.

writhe · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch [c=#008099]I know that and I think of that every single day[/c]

MarmeeMarch · M

@writhe Then that sounds like it really bothers you. You are young are you going to really let this rule the rest of your life ? - make a list - pros and cons of living here / not living here

writhe · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch [c=#008099]I know why I'm here, but yes it bothers me. It's basically loss, it's like when a person close to you dies. It's a big change. When my father died at least I was at home and had my people, I had my habits, my places. Now I don't have neither my dad nor my mom, siblings, land, language, traditions. So as much as I need to stay here, I cannot get over that loss so easily.[/c]

MarmeeMarch · M

@writhe Maybe you can visit once in a while.

writhe · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch [c=#008099]once in a while I could, yes.[/c]

MarmeeMarch · M

@writhe Of course - why not ? Why cant you have the best of both worlds ?

writhe · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch [c=#008099]I can but this once in a while you are describing is once in a very very long while.[/c]

MarmeeMarch · M

@writhe Like I said you are young and prob dont have a ton of money and you prob have more responsibilities but one day you will hopefully have resources to travel more.