I Am An Immigrant

[c=#008099]Today I let myself weep with nostalgia. It's been something less than a year since I've been away from home. I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I have not spoken my language in days so all I can do is murmur when I'm alone and sing folk songs that I didn't even think I liked until recently. People here don't have the same sense of humour and communicating on a deeper level with someone is the hardest task. I feel like I'm the fool of the village. I feel like they see me as retarted. I have this bottle filled with sand from the beach near home, I sprinkle some in my hands and cry.[/c]

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Whiterosesociety

I had a teeny tiny snippet of an experience here with a person who expressed their sorrow in a language I didn't know

and instead of just letting it go, I went into Google Translate and wrote something the bot cranked out for a translated response

and then she didn't "heart" my response. She must have known the words were generated from a machine, and her other 3 responses were genuine so she hearted them.

Then I was so embarrassed I erased my response.

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When a non Roman comes into Rome, it's important to do what the Romans do and try to adjust but not to expect too much felt "connection" at first...
The loneliness must be so painful!

writhe · 26-30, F

@Whiterosesociety [c=#008099]really there's nothing one could do that would help with this, it's hard if you don't know what it feels like...[/c]

Whiterosesociety

@writhe I wish there was something I could say to you alone.😔

writhe · 26-30, F

@Whiterosesociety [c=#008099]thank you[/c]