The song big jet plane came on YouTube after this song I was listening to

I am conflicted here. My wife is still alive. But in care with dementia. For about ten years I cared for her in our home. The isolation of Covid actually made things easier for me. Because she didnt wish to be explosed and allowed me to do all the shopping etc. But as the person in her life who had to tell her "No' at times she gradually grew to resent me and regard me ass her jailer. In the end a couple of medical events caused her to reach a break. A tipping point if you will where She couldnt be managed, and she is now in menetia care. My point is that she gradually because a very different person with her own fantasy world.. Someone I had a duty to. But not someone I loved..I mourn her loss, and visit her now, and the relationship is better, because Im am nor the one saying No anymore..But I still mourn the one who is gone and will never return..😷

Maybe it happens.. out of sight out of mind..