The song big jet plane came on YouTube after this song I was listening to

And it reminded me of my deceased wife because I wanted to take her to Australia, we lived in Switzerland. I really wanted her to have a better life. I shed a tear but that’s about it. I don’t feel much anymore. It’s been eight months and it’s like I’ve forgotten her. It hurts me that I’ve forgotten her but… she’s just gone. There’s nothing left to feel. I don’t understand why it’s like this. Have you just forgotten someone and just felt nothing anymore?

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whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, M

I am conflicted here. My wife is still alive. But in care with dementia. For about ten years I cared for her in our home. The isolation of Covid actually made things easier for me. Because she didnt wish to be explosed and allowed me to do all the shopping etc. But as the person in her life who had to tell her "No' at times she gradually grew to resent me and regard me ass her jailer. In the end a couple of medical events caused her to reach a break. A tipping point if you will where She couldnt be managed, and she is now in menetia care. My point is that she gradually because a very different person with her own fantasy world.. Someone I had a duty to. But not someone I loved..I mourn her loss, and visit her now, and the relationship is better, because Im am nor the one saying No anymore..But I still mourn the one who is gone and will never return..😷

Ferise1 · 46-50, M

@whowasthatmaskedman very sorry

whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, M

@Ferise1 I am not complaining. 50 good years and all we achieved together is way more than most get. I remember all of that..😷

Ferise1 · 46-50, M

@whowasthatmaskedman that’s great you had a good run😊❤ I only had 18 years. I wish I could have had more.

whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, M

@Ferise1 I am so sorry you didnt get more..😷