I love God but...

I don't like calling myself a Christian. My lifestyle is not in line with the regulations required for Christianity right now. I receive alot of judgement online for that. It's not that I don't want to change and live a life more in line with God it's that it takes time. Let me explain..I live with my boyfriend. I know that's shocking to a Christian but it's true. I'm living in sin as far as they are concerned. But have you ever stopped to wonder as a Christian that there might be good reason for that. For us it's both because I'm in the process of getting divorced at the same time as we live together for health reasons. We do plan to marry as soon as it's possible but that's going to take time. I'm ok with this because God knows my situation. He knows my heart and what I want. I don't need all the backlash and judgement about something that's between me and God. So I don't call myself a Christian because I hate judging people. I want to not fixate on sin but to concentrate on the loving and accepting side of God instead. Because that's the kind of person I am.

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4meAndyou · F

I feel so badly for your confusion. I went through something similar when I was 19 years old. I was Catholic in those days, and I always assumed that I was excommunicated because I got divorced. I went on to live a somewhat wild life after that.

I wasn't excommunicated, I just didn't know it. And there was forgiveness available, if I had known it was available.

In my new church, we must ask God for forgiveness in the name of Jesus Christ, if we sin. It is not assumed that we will not sin.

You are lucky, in that you have arrived at this essential knowledge on your own, which tells me that God and His only son, Jesus Christ, are close to your heart.

That's all God ever asks of us...to love Him that much, and to have a personal relationship with Him.