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Finally finding peace

If you have come here first read my story on religious trauma as this is what led me to Buddhism.
I searched for a long time for a peaceful spiritual path. My ex wife was a Therevada Buddhist so I had been to a monastery with her. My ex before her was also Therevada Buddhist and she taught me to chant in Pali. So I allready had some knowledge of Buddhism. After I came out of christianity recently. I wanted to heal my mental health and the trauma. I came to Buddhism and started to practice daily breathing meditation and metta meditation. I set up a buddhist shrine with a Lord Buddha statue so I could do my chanting and meditation there. Sometimes I play relaxing music too. I began to feel more at peace and at ease. I stopped praying and wearing a rosary at night. I stopped sensing demons and having weird experiences/bad dreams. I stopped feeling judged and my fear of demons and hell is still there. But it's beginning to get easier to experience new things without panicking about those things. I am beginning too bee able to go out short distances on my own and I am gradually healing. I used to feel a heavy feeling like a weight crushing my desires to be me, my very spirit. But Buddhism is begining to make me feel free.
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Entwistle · 56-60, M
Thats nice. I'm a Buddhist too.
All Heavens and all Hells are mental creations.
Perhaps in time try reading the teachings on 'Sunyata'..they arw from the Mahayana vehicle..its all Buddhism though..
RubiesandButterflies · 51-55, F
@Entwistle thankyou I'll have a look I'm open to Mahayana teachings. I'm currently reading about zen buddhism. There is a zen temple near me so I may visit there. I'm currently emailing one of the monks to find out more about their talks there.
Entwistle · 56-60, M
@RubiesandButterflies Zen is interesting. It deals with instant breakthrough..flashes of insight into reality. Satori.