I hate being big

@DearAmbellina2113 I’m literally crying at work.

@KelXtraAF cool.

@WillaKissing Ty 🥺

@KelXtraAF You are quite welcome..

@Havesomefun2 my face is okish my chin and stomach are blah

@KelXtraAF I really don’t like when people put themselves down I am not the best thing to wake up to or see but it’s what is the heart that matters

@Havesomefun2 society makes it difficult

@froggtongue I’m down 33 lbs since August for now. I still think even if I get smaller I won’t be good enough. Turns out my confidence is just shit lol

@KelXtraAF me too. I thought i was doing terribly until i let my weight really add up which made me realize i wasn't so bad before.

@HootyTheNightOwl I hope you’re right. I think just seeing all these posts on all these platforms are getting to me.

@KelXtraAF Most of my life, I've been told that I'm overweight - and I need to lose weight by doctors.

Well, I had my diet restricted to the point where I was eating a sandwich every other day... well, I still didn't lose weight, though I developed a B12 deficiency.

I'm struggling to get my diet back to being healthy to this day - and I don't qualify for medical help because "You don't look like you have an eating disorder".

I've reached the point where I no longer give two shits about what society thinks... I am me, take me or leave me. On the whole, I'm happier than I've ever been now that I'm not starving myself to fit some "ideal" on a chart or fit into what society thinks I should be.

Sure, I'm still overweight - and my weight fluctuates between 9 and 10st... as it has since I was 18, but I'm done trying to change myself to suit others. If they don't like me, I'll hold the door open for them and not stand in the way.

@HootyTheNightOwl I think now that I’m getting older I’m more so worried about my health. I took a month of short term disability a couple years ago and was in the best shape of my life. Then when I got back to work I was crumbling. I didn’t have time to make what I used to. The dishes piled and it was more time taken away from me. By the time I finished work and the gym it was almost 8 pm. I started having panic attacks because I couldn’t stay at the 1700 calories the way I needed to. It just got bad. Recently I have noticed I’m extremely tired all the time though so it has me worried.