Random thoughts

Somtime I think about you i know I shouldn’t . I feel like I put you on a pedestal I made you out to be the best person . I think it’s so hard to get over you bc I truly loved you with my whole heart . You make me out to be some bad person but I’ve never cheated I barely even had friends when I was with you . All I ever wanted to do was talk to you be with you . No matter all the shit you did and how u make me out to be you’ll always have a piece of my heart .I remember one time I thought I was dying bc someone drugged me and you where there . I remember thinking to myself if I die tonight at least she’ll be the last face I’ll see .i somtimes wish you could see how much I truly loved you and didn’t want anyone else . I feel it’s so hard to try to date again . I saw someone who looked like you the other day and my heart dropped a little . I sometimes wish for one night we could cuddle like we use to . We could just have a day of fun events good food we could forget we weren’t doing okay then we could part , but that would only make it harder . I feel very stupid it’s been months and I still think of you the good of coarse . I somtimes wonder do you hate me so bad ? I wish I could prove to u how much I loved you but I did that all the time I always tried to prove to you . I always begged for your love bc I loved you a lot and u just didn’t wanna love me ….