Anal and submission

Every Sunday night I have maintenance from my online dominant and, in addition to the guided spanking he has me do, he has recently introduced anal.

I was at one time no stranger to being penetrated this way but after a long time without, it's really surprised me how the reintroduction has made me feel.

As you can see from my picture, my dildo is nine inches in length and seven in girth so it's a really big size. It hurts to take it. I have to use a lot of coconut oil and go really really slowly, stretching, little by little until all of it is inside me. It probably takes me up to an hour until I can fully accept all of it.

I don't know what it is but there's something about penetration in my bottom that makes me feel incredibly submissive. More than being spanked even.

I feel it next day. The discomfort from the stretch and a lasting ache is there but also, a deep sense of calmness and peace.

When I feel that way, I can think more clearly. I'm just better and more productive. I think a lot of dominants know this and that's why anal is often a favourite but anyway, I just wanted to share the impact it's had.

I'm grateful for it x