I don't want to not belong anywhere anymore.

Probably going to shut down until we move z then I'll work on having a real life. I need real people to care for and love. I need to laugh. I'm having one last pity party. I don't know if I'll ever get close to anyone again I'm not a good person it's true I get nervous and I need patience people don't have. I screw up EVERYTHINg. And I'm gonna wake up tomorrow and keep doing my best but there's gonna be nobody there to leave me 😂 hail nobody to leave me there's nobody left!

I'm okay. I really am. I just have feelings and I'm open and I don't have the shame people do I guess I don't want to stuff everything down. It hurts. It's howvi process. But it's not good to others so I'm alone. Now really really alone there's no one to call. I don't even know how it got this bad. I tried to do and be the good but I'm wrong.