Drinking tonight, tho I shouldn't (it's 9.30 pm here atm)

Ran out of antabuse about a week ago, and haven't been able to afford any more since they're expensive af.

Decided to have a few ciders tonight to test myself (bought 4) in the hopes I could have a normal relationship with alcohol.
Got one and a half left and I'm already trying to figure out how to get more alcohol.

I wasn't as ready as I thought to stop taking antabuse, but atleast I'm aware of my thoughts and willing to start taking them again on monday when I have the money for more.