Horrible situation

I can’t afford to eat rn it’s embarrassing
I’m in an alcoholism program still outpatient
Unemployed because of it and I barely eat
I’m not even hungry I’m so depressed
Alcohol was my cope
And I’m bankrupting and can’t afford anything. It’s such a bad time in my life
I’m exhausted by this and yet I’m terrified to relapse
Everyday is a struggle just to eat and I feel the lowest I ever have