Not wanting to try

There’s this new woman in the alcoholism program that took me aside last time I was at my appointment and told me she’d like to talk with me and I don’t want to. I feel a bit hurt by my caseworker in general. I knew I would which was why when she hugged me, I sorta acted annoyed by it and tried to distance myself. I knew it wasn’t about being in my life but helping me and I have attachment issues.. and now she’s backing out of my life and seems annoyed by me. Maybe because of this idk but when I spoke with the new woman I really felt I had nothing I wanted to share. I hate being judged and I felt she wanted me to match something she’s gone through. It was uncomfortable. She keeps calling and scolded me for not answering in person. I feel I’m reclusing- (word?) again which my caseworker says I do. I just protect myself.