The struggle
In 2011 I quit drinking because of how it was effecting my behavior and attitude. The "fun drinking" made way for anger and poor judgement.
I made it to 2019 when I had champagne on my wedding anniversary and that started the downward spiral again. So much that it didn't matter if it was 4pm or 4am, I was downing 4 to 5 shots of whiskey in a matter of ten minutes, daily.
It put me deep into depression and everyone became my enemy in my mind. I've reached the lowest point in my life.
Today, I'm 36 days sober and it has been a struggle. Last week especially. When the mind overthinks everything I want to dive back into the bottle to numb it all.
I'm staying the course.
I made it to 2019 when I had champagne on my wedding anniversary and that started the downward spiral again. So much that it didn't matter if it was 4pm or 4am, I was downing 4 to 5 shots of whiskey in a matter of ten minutes, daily.
It put me deep into depression and everyone became my enemy in my mind. I've reached the lowest point in my life.
Today, I'm 36 days sober and it has been a struggle. Last week especially. When the mind overthinks everything I want to dive back into the bottle to numb it all.
I'm staying the course.
