I Hate My Alcoholic Husband

So, I'm sitting here 'net surfing and have come across a few stories I know my husband would find interesting, but I can't share them with him because he's drunk and I don't want to start a hours long, rambling, slurring conversation that I have no hope of being able to follow. This is basically every night. It gets quite lonely.
I've had enough. It's not that I want someone else. I just want some peace and quiet and predictability.

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Mona73 · 51-55, F

Finances keep us together, but I have a great job that I love. It is only part-time right now, but I will be going to full time after the first on the year.
It's not really difficult. I mean, thousands of people have it way worse than I do. He never gets violent and rarely gets angry. It's just incredibly boring and sad. I feel more like his babysitter than his wife. I'm alone, but not single. I've tried talking to him but he is addicted to alcohol and he makes every excuse he can to hold on to his addiction. I guess that is pretty common amongst addicts.

Pherick · 41-45, M

It is common, just hope you can at some point soon, make the most of your life, and not be dragged down by his.

Mona73 · 51-55, F

@Pherick: Thank you. If we take him out of the equation, I'm pretty content with my life. I have a job that I adore and look forward to going to every day. I have pets that are the light of my life. I don't have a lot of friends, but I'm kind of a loner anyway and don't feel life is lacking because I don't have an abundance of friends. In my younger days, I travelled quite a bit. I've seen and done things I never dreamed I would, but am at a point in life where I just want quiet, peace and predictability. The only thing keeping me from having just that is him and he will be gone soon :)

Pherick · 41-45, M

@Mona73: Peace and quiet seems like a very good goal! I am glad to hear you are content, and I hope you are able to reach that full contentment very very soon! You deserve it.