I need help😓

So... My working theory is that I have sexual OCD and compulsive sexual disorder ( I've always just said sex addiction because it's simple that way)

I also have coregasms which makes things a million times worse because I used to love working out....

Sometimes I can't stop my body from climaxing. I can't always control when it happens. And then it triggers everything else and I just want to cry....

And guys think it's so sexy to turn me on and they don't realize that's literally my whole damn day down the toilet. I can't stop thinking about it, rereading the text, if my body starts acting up and the fantasies start and then I'm obsessive, and then masturbating for hours....

And every time I think I have a firm grip on things shit just goes sideways. How am I ever supposed to have a relationship like this???

Totally contradicts my beliefs and hinders my ability to make real progress in life smh. It's one of those nights...

I'm tired. I've climaxes at least 6x today... And I really want some affection because I'm feeling vulnerable.... This 😔