I used to have a firm grasp on that. Now I'm not sure. I don't feel worth. The time or effort. I feel like I'm failing.. I feel undesirable. Like maybe I'm more nefarious than even I know...
Each and every person is of inestimable worth, and when one begins to question that, it's like going down the proverbial rabbit hole of surreal disorientation, one thought leads to another in a chain, and that chain is what may be called nefarious.
Step by step i suggest an affirmation process, dual based on actions and thoughts, to build yourself back up. Patience, and hope to you!